It's been a long, long month. - Updated 8/3

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July was just an awful month. What with Diane's , the family squabbling that ensued, and the bridge collapse on 8-1. There have been some good things happening too, but I just haven't felt like saying anything about how I'm feeling. It's just hard sometimes to put all that down in writing. Embarrassment? Afraid to share the deep stuff? Maybe.

Good things. Jordan's Lead America trip, Driver's Permit, and getting the job she really wanted. Steve's amazing guitar skills and my introduction to Halo 2 and Breakout revenge (the most awesome drive and crash game - I LOVE IT). Home improvements, much needed and turning out great! VACATION. Potential of a new job on the horizon? (hope and pray).

Time to move on.

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I haven't blogged for awhile. I guess I'm just too sad to try and put down in writing what I've been expecting for awhile. Diane is losing. She has been fighting cancer for about 10 years now. After just 3 she had her first recurrence/mets. She's been close to several times in the past few years. Medical advances have given her more years than any of us could have expected, but eventually comes the day when they say "There is nothing more we can do". That day came shortly after Father's Day. We drove up to St. Joe and visited on Father's Day, and that was Diane's next to the last day at home. She was awake and enjoyed our visit I think. However, she has been in a lot of pain for a long time, and it just became too much. She returned to the hospital a couple of days after Father's Day and won't be coming back anymore. Each time we have visited, she's been slowly getting worse. Last night we heard news that 24 hours may be all the time she has left now. Their kids have made picture boards already over the past couple of weeks, and a picture book, preparing for the funeral and rosary that will be said. God be merciful.

Hail Mary,
full of grace.
The Lord is with thee.
Blessed art thou amongst women,
and blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus.
Holy Mary, Mother of God,
pray for us sinners,
now and at the hour of our .
Amen.